Heyy everyone, here's me up at 7:14 after another all nighter writing a really annoying essay for my class. I think I will give up trying to keep one journal per month = / I don't like seeing such long looking journals on my page but yet I feel unorganized making too many journals.
Anyways, I want to share what I wrote on the paper which somewhat regards the recent uproar of the new DA system. See if you understand it...lol.. I doubt half of you will read through this at all xD I won't put it all here... just a bit..xD the book I have to read is fifty times more confusing. (temporarily taking out the css so it's easier to read)

"[.....] One is constantly becoming a slave to the desire for recognition that one has made master. Society is constantly seeking to become the position of master by conquering and receiving recognition from others who have become slaves in their act of recognizing.
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So why do you think these artists [of deviantart] have raised such a commotion over this [new system]? It is because some of them are about to lose the opportunities of growing recognition, and some of them are lamenting that this system allows artists to gain the recognition in an instance when they themselves have earned their recognition through a long and difficult process [and the fact that some people don't get the recognition they deserve]. Why is this idea of recognition so crucial to people? Why has everyone set themselves up as slaves to this desire for recognition they have deemed master? It is like an unending cycle! People join the community, [achieve] the popularity they deemed to be the master; more people join the community and see the popular artists and have deemed them to be the master, strive to reach them, and so on. It can not be explained by anything other than Hegel’s theory that people want to be recognized; recognized for who they are and for their achievements. It is a constant war against everyone else to have more recognition than anyone else… even to the lengths of falsifying their own achievements to gain that master status. It is amazing to what lengths people will go to win a war. As Kojeve teachings say, written in Modern French Philosophy, “Reality is a fight to the death between men for ludicrous stakes – people will risk their lives to defend a flag, to obtain satisfaction for an insult, etc. – and any philosophy that neglects this essential fact is an idealistic mystification” (p14). This internet community is like any other reality…men will risk their pride to obtain the recognition that they deem necessary to their existence. This is reality.

In the book Continental Philosophy, it also states that, “It is only by being ‘recognized’ by another, by many others, or – in the extreme- by all others, that a human being is really human, for himself as well as others.” This would explain why some people would go through such lengths to achieve this recognition. We are slaves to that desire for recognition because we want to know we exist. I believe Hegel or Kant has mentioned before that the being that exists is different from the being that is acknowledged. I know that I exist… as a being I know that my being exists in this world… but if no one recognized me, or if I made no impact on anyone else in the world, how would I know that I exist? The way people interact is all through recognition of varying scales. It’s a matter of 'I recognize you, therefore you exist and I will interact with you. And you recognize me, which is why you interact with me.' "

(This writing does not mean anything against anyone because I know that I myself is part of this system. There is no human that isn't... so just please read this objectively and as a philosophical standpoint. It's not saying that I like this... it's just what I had to write about. If you're actually interested, research Hegel and Kojeve philosophy *_*;;; )

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Hi everyone! Sorry for the lack up anything from me. I am trying to cut down on the # of journals I make so as to not spam you all... that and I am quite lost on the aspect of time at this point.
I love sleep... trust me, but I do not know why I am so willing to sacrifice it. My days are like.... 30 hr days, then sleep a whole 12 hrs, then another 30 hr day. I swear it's unhealthy *_*;;; My friends ays I'm gonna die early. I hope that's not the case lol =_=;;
bad.... bad... bad.....
Lol, in addition to dying early.. I'm gonna go deaf too. Just last night I went to a workshop with my taiko group with Taiko Project, a professional group of taiko players who perform all over the place. We were in a tiny room, and there were lots and lots of drums... my ears almost died in there xDD
Anyways... what do I have to say.... hmmm... besides the sleeping problem... hmm.... I'm worried about my design culture society class. None of us read the book ever, but we have to write a 5 page essay on it for our midterms. Sad day...
Oh, by the way, I'll have some updates very soon so keep in touch I really need to take the time to scan in my drawings in my sketchbook. There's a loooot in there... things that you'll prolly never see. nyaaaaaaa.... alrightee.. time to get ready for class soon... *sigh* my sleeping schedule... really... needs... to be fixed... ;_; Still haven't hit my last year's record of 58 hrs but I am definitely doing a lot more 30hr ones...